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Phenomenal performance, writing, photography – everything.

I don’t think I remember what my mind was before the things that happened that ruined my mind. It’s particularly fascinating for me to see someone exposed in this way, when I know most people whose minds function like this dedicate much of their (our) time to concealing it.

34 comments on “Phenomenal performance, writing, photography – everything.

  1. Kris Jennings
    April 16, 2020

    His character is an interesting one. So authentic to his heart, which endears him to others. (Like you.)

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    • The Pink Agendist
      April 17, 2020

      🙂 But doesn’t that phrase come to mind, that he just wasn’t made for this world?

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      • Kris Jennings
        April 17, 2020

        I humbly disagree. It made life different, but in that he influenced everyone around him to see the “gap” in the world. He made them all better for it.

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  2. john zande
    April 16, 2020

    Wow.

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  3. Quixie
    April 16, 2020

    I just finished Ozark season 3 and while I the show wasn’t necessarily my “thing”, I really appreciated this scene. I have bipolar disorder and what you see in this clip is similar to what happens in my head when I’m not doing well. I’m just not usually as verbal (I can hide it pretty well).

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    • The Pink Agendist
      April 17, 2020

      Yes, I think many people who have a different way of processing information learn we have no choice but to hide it. But there’s no way around the fact that we see differently and we feel differently. I’d never seen a scene like this, so real, so accurate – even with the repetition and that thing where you’re trying to complete a sentence or an idea and it’s like a car that won’t start, there but not there.

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  4. Robert A. Vella
    April 16, 2020

    I agree, that was phenomenal.

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    • The Pink Agendist
      April 17, 2020

      I’ve also been watching this week the Ken Burns series on the Vietnam War; the combination of the two made me think how humans are essentially conditioned to respond (or not) to stimuli. How much of our reactions are about what we’re told we should or shouldn’t feel as opposed to how we actually do feel?

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  5. makagutu
    April 17, 2020

    Maybe I should watch it

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    • The Pink Agendist
      April 17, 2020

      It’s different from everything else that’s out there, which is refreshing – but dark instead of refreshing 😀

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      • makagutu
        April 17, 2020

        I tend to avoid series they way others avoid the plague- i don’t want to increase the addictions i have you see- but i will consider this for a limited period

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  6. lanie belluz
    April 17, 2020

    Just a little tid-bit about the show – that paddleboat is on Stone Mtn. lake I’ve paddled on my board around that thing many times.

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  7. Steve Ruis
    April 17, 2020

    My partner has tackled this series, but I have not. I think the cab riders comment about getting deep into another person’s shit is apropos. I would only have the time to do that with a very close loved one and doing it vicariously on the other side of a screen seems unworthy of the effort. (You can’t help the cab rider ’cause he ain’t real, know what I mean?)

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    • The Pink Agendist
      April 17, 2020

      Aaahh, but he is real! He’s probably someone you know but haven’t noticed that’s how they think.

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  8. maryplumbago
    April 17, 2020

    Powerful clip. I have t watched the series, but I’ve heard it was good. I like a good drama you can “feel.”

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  9. acflory
    April 18, 2020

    I watch very little tv, but that was powerful. -hugs-

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    • The Pink Agendist
      April 19, 2020

      It is, isn’t it? I imagine the writer must have very intimate experience with this sort of thinking pattern.

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      • acflory
        April 19, 2020

        Absolutely. I can’t imagine anyone being able to write something this intimate just from research.

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  10. Anonymole
    April 18, 2020

    Every character in this series is a criminal. Not that I don’t care for criminals; in fact I know some very nice ones and indeed have bent the law a time or ten myself.

    But this show has no hero, no one to cheer for. If they all died of the plague, in some strange twist of current events invade televised life, I’d prolly cheer.

    Ben’s rambling soliloquy was a telling commentary on sanity. And the fact that many of our psychiatric imbalanced are that way due to brain chemicals.

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    • The Pink Agendist
      April 19, 2020

      That’s an interesting angle. These days I find the concept of crime somewhat dubious. Iraq? Guantanamo? The treatment of Snowden or Manning? The sexual misconduct of Clinton and Trump? The water in Flint, the IRPH scandal in Spain. The legalised murder of drug users in the Philippines. The various banking scandals. Criminals seem to permeate every aspect of life, we just pretend it isn’t so. Being is the ultimate act of the willing suspension of disbelief.

      Do you think Ben’s way of perceiving things is truly “insane”; or is everyone else just more conditioned to accept suspending their disbelief? Or to put it another way, they just have more complacency chemicals than he does?

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      • Anonymole
        April 19, 2020

        Certainly the prevalence of crime/unethical behavior is rampant these days. It might just be media’s ability and predilection to call attention to it.
        As I began to watch the O (forced into it by my wife) I expected /someone/ to be uncorruptible, to have some moral enlightenment that one could at least cheer. We watch Blacklist and the main character there, vicious and unscrupulous, has at least a (manic) benevolent king’s approach: protect the weak and innocent. Or another, Person of Interest, where crime after crime is committed, all in the name of the Greater Good.

        Ozark? Everyone is just plain rotten. The “Buddy” character could have led them out I suppose, or even this Ben guy who, as you mention, has an understanding of universal right & wrong. But nope. It’s a rare cast and plot where you could gather them all on a boat in the ocean — and sink it — and the world would be a better place.
        It’s possible that this show is commentary on the unavoidable acceptance of crime in our lives.

        > Being is the ultimate act of the willing suspension of disbelief.
        Ah, you must have been reading some of the ‘Mudge and me’s existential analysis…

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  11. lorraineanne
    April 27, 2020

    this is amazing! thank you for sharing.
    If you have a chance, please check out my photography!
    https://thehighsnlows.com/vsco/
    it would mean a lot!

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  12. Hariod Brawn
    May 2, 2020

    Almost everybody has ‘crazy’ thoughts. Almost everybody hides them from others. Except the ‘crazy’ people — they’re the only honest ones, the only ones who speak their truth. All the rest is dissembling. All the ‘sane’ ones are dissemblers.

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    • The Pink Agendist
      May 2, 2020

      I’e always thought that, but when I say it people think I’m crazy 😀

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      • Hariod Brawn
        May 2, 2020

        Hope you and Mike are doing okay; I’ve been in hiding for weeks so don’t know how things are. That said, I’m not prying, so please just accept my best wishes for you both.

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      • The Pink Agendist
        May 2, 2020

        Thank you – yes, all is well. Confinement suits us well. We leave the house once a week to pick up groceries and that’s it. We’ve spent a lot of time in the garden and this year I’ve decided to grow vegetables again (for obvious reasons.)
        You live in the countryside don’t you? Having outside space makes all the difference.

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      • Hariod Brawn
        May 2, 2020

        Yes, I’m sort of plonked between three towns surrounded by the Somerset Levels (fenland, ancient sea floor, many interbred locals). Got about six acres of orchard out the back so no need to go anywhere for fresh air (or apples). Being 117 means I’m in the vulnerable group, of course; but my butler does for me, takes care of the weekly re-ups. Seeing no other humans isn’t really an issue for me. I miss my darling Nellie, though (Border Collie).

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