Life at № 42 by E.M. Coutinho
I’m only just now realizing how much of life is reflective (in the reactive rather than thoughtful sense.) I can’t quantify it precisely, but it seems to me that at the very least over 70% of reactive behaviour is based on the circumstances of the self rather than on the external action itself.
I say that because progressively, the effects of external stimuli have been considerably dampened for me. A lot of what I would have found offensive or unpleasant at 20, is entirely insignificant at 37.
The process started a while ago but is only reaching what seems to be its full maturation now. Lovely.